Our marriage before having the two girls was fine. We had great overseas holiday and spent time together. After our first child, things were getting along ok until our second child came along.
I guess when two parties are together too long, the spark is no longer so "bright" and especially when your wife is pregnant and looks clumsy and not attractive, then another woman who came along and everything went "pop". Or I guess he is not happy that he is having another girl again. I can vividly remember his response when I asked him to accompany me to the clinic for scanning. That nonchalant attitude and used busy work as reason.
Can you imagine your husband fetching his lover right in your presence and act nothing? Can you imagine they left you at home alone eating packet food especially for pregnant woman who need nourishment and they enjoyed themselves outside and rocked the bed?
I will never forget that fateful day and it was a great blow to me. My trusted husband actually betrayed me and sent me to the bottom of the world. It is a long story as it is a double blow after all. Till now, he kept lamenting why I have changed and behaved in a certain way, I guess he has long forgot how much I have suffered during that period of time.
I buried in tears at night, hated to conceive this child and wanted to end my life. I am very despaired and life to me has lost its meaning. The person whom I trusted and entrust to has become another person, he has hurt me and embraced another woman.
Up to this moment, how do I put my mind at ease and you think it is easy to live with it? Is it easy not to have your mind wander what my hubby is doing outside and is he meeting that woman?
One day, when my two girls have grown up, should I tell them their daddy 's affair or leave it to him to say? or maybe we just bury it if we stay together happily and without any regret?
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