After I discovered his affair, he promised to be faithful and he swears he will not hurt me again.
Now, I have doubts about his words. Can he really resist the temptation? Once bitten, twice shy, is this true? So far, he claimed he has not done anything and I hope he will stay that way forever. I don't want him to do it behind my back again and this time round, I wont be so forgiving anymore.
Why do I think so? because he will always say things like he can satisfy women easily and all women love to have sex with him. He will also say things like most men have done that and to me, why are you telling me all these? Are you saying what you have done is the "norm'? I should not have made a big fuss out of it and I should instead appraise you for that??
Nowadays, I discourage him from going to Pub, KTV, massage parlour etc as there are so many temptations out there and the best solution is to avoid them. You don't go near the mine field if you are worried about stepping on them.
He claimed he had high sexual desire and I am also human, how do I fully satisfy him? Only people who are after money will do a great job!
If you don't have the opportunity, what chances will arise from it?
Am I wrong to say so?
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Love him?
maybe some of you will ask me whether I still love him?
Do I ? If there is no love, then it is difficult to stay together. I admit there is but I need time to slowly regain and commit to it.
I feel he is not loving me as much and I guess this is understood. He has "loved" someone before and what more do I expect him to return to me 100%?
If he has loved me 100% in the first place, would he have done that? Is it just lust? Or just fling? But won't the family and our long-standing relationship overcome his lust or desire?
What does he want?
Do I ? If there is no love, then it is difficult to stay together. I admit there is but I need time to slowly regain and commit to it.
I feel he is not loving me as much and I guess this is understood. He has "loved" someone before and what more do I expect him to return to me 100%?
If he has loved me 100% in the first place, would he have done that? Is it just lust? Or just fling? But won't the family and our long-standing relationship overcome his lust or desire?
What does he want?
My Family
Our marriage before having the two girls was fine. We had great overseas holiday and spent time together. After our first child, things were getting along ok until our second child came along.
I guess when two parties are together too long, the spark is no longer so "bright" and especially when your wife is pregnant and looks clumsy and not attractive, then another woman who came along and everything went "pop". Or I guess he is not happy that he is having another girl again. I can vividly remember his response when I asked him to accompany me to the clinic for scanning. That nonchalant attitude and used busy work as reason.
Can you imagine your husband fetching his lover right in your presence and act nothing? Can you imagine they left you at home alone eating packet food especially for pregnant woman who need nourishment and they enjoyed themselves outside and rocked the bed?
I will never forget that fateful day and it was a great blow to me. My trusted husband actually betrayed me and sent me to the bottom of the world. It is a long story as it is a double blow after all. Till now, he kept lamenting why I have changed and behaved in a certain way, I guess he has long forgot how much I have suffered during that period of time.
I buried in tears at night, hated to conceive this child and wanted to end my life. I am very despaired and life to me has lost its meaning. The person whom I trusted and entrust to has become another person, he has hurt me and embraced another woman.
Up to this moment, how do I put my mind at ease and you think it is easy to live with it? Is it easy not to have your mind wander what my hubby is doing outside and is he meeting that woman?
One day, when my two girls have grown up, should I tell them their daddy 's affair or leave it to him to say? or maybe we just bury it if we stay together happily and without any regret?
I guess when two parties are together too long, the spark is no longer so "bright" and especially when your wife is pregnant and looks clumsy and not attractive, then another woman who came along and everything went "pop". Or I guess he is not happy that he is having another girl again. I can vividly remember his response when I asked him to accompany me to the clinic for scanning. That nonchalant attitude and used busy work as reason.
Can you imagine your husband fetching his lover right in your presence and act nothing? Can you imagine they left you at home alone eating packet food especially for pregnant woman who need nourishment and they enjoyed themselves outside and rocked the bed?
I will never forget that fateful day and it was a great blow to me. My trusted husband actually betrayed me and sent me to the bottom of the world. It is a long story as it is a double blow after all. Till now, he kept lamenting why I have changed and behaved in a certain way, I guess he has long forgot how much I have suffered during that period of time.
I buried in tears at night, hated to conceive this child and wanted to end my life. I am very despaired and life to me has lost its meaning. The person whom I trusted and entrust to has become another person, he has hurt me and embraced another woman.
Up to this moment, how do I put my mind at ease and you think it is easy to live with it? Is it easy not to have your mind wander what my hubby is doing outside and is he meeting that woman?
One day, when my two girls have grown up, should I tell them their daddy 's affair or leave it to him to say? or maybe we just bury it if we stay together happily and without any regret?
He is not happy with me again!
This morning, I went to work with my hubby, taking a ride from him, glad to spend time with him as he worked late till midnight.
But along the way, we squabbled again. This is not the first time. I just asked him about whether Friday he no need to work late and he was unhappy. He said I am questioning him about something, I should ask him in a nicer way.
I feel speechless and heart-sank. very stress to talk to own husband. He feels I am controlling him a lot so if I ask about his work too much, he is not happy. As a wife, I should just follow his orders and not probe too much or we should just simply avoid each other or rather don't talk face to face.
But along the way, we squabbled again. This is not the first time. I just asked him about whether Friday he no need to work late and he was unhappy. He said I am questioning him about something, I should ask him in a nicer way.
I feel speechless and heart-sank. very stress to talk to own husband. He feels I am controlling him a lot so if I ask about his work too much, he is not happy. As a wife, I should just follow his orders and not probe too much or we should just simply avoid each other or rather don't talk face to face.
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