actually what is the point of saying them out when we cannot even talk face to face?

What I have done to improve? WHAT HAVE YOU ALSO DONE TO IMPROVE?
1)did I bother you when the first thing you reach home weekend is to play ur game? after work, t night when you are tired you can lie flat on bed and fall alseep, I have to attend to them even tired and sick. did you bother to ask I need help?
2)who take care of the kids when you are busy at work? why did you say I better live long enough to take care of them ? why you cannot do the job?
3) who handle the maid's issue?
4)who take care of the kids' well being? eg lesson etc
5)yes, sometimes i did not communicate to you patiently but did we make an effort to communicate daily? I realise the less often we communicate , the more difficult we try to talk
6)I might not have totally appreciate what you have done but did you to me so far? you will appreciate what the maid did but me?
7)I am not patient and easily frustrated but i have no right to lose control? even you say maid can lose control.
8)were you passionate and loving to me at all? (you just recall the times when we are dating, I guess once you got hold of something you won't treasure as much as you used to be)
9)í did sms you at times to ask u about work and lunch what I get is sarcastic remark that I am checking on you. By the way, I have not receive any from you so far. You can be busy but depend on who you prefer to sms to.
10)Did I not offer help and advice to your family member? what more do you want me to do for them? If you are busy, then I am not right? I remember when I was pregn and I was teaching a pri 2 class, you commented that my job sucks as I not busy like the rest cos i am teaching lower pri. You can think likewise and I cannot and when I point out it is not true you will show your undispleasure and then start howling.
that day we talk about ailing bil treat, I just casual mention and you have make one big round and insult me. i cannot even voice my opinion to my husband and he has to critise me instead.
11) who left the things lying around despite my nagging and then I have to give up and put them back in place.
12)I admit I have my pride too and you always like to raise your voice first even in front of the maid and the kids. Did you think of me?
13)after your affair, did i make a big hooha in front of your family or your relative? I am sure some of them are still kept in the dark knowing your grandma and you are full of pride people. She still dare to mention about having third child despite what I went through, talking about your family support for me..sama sama
14) whatever you do outside I have no clue and you dont even share so why blame me for being suspicious?
15)I make an effort to buy you birthday gift and at least the surprise element is there. What about you, answer is I am busy lor no time to buy. 2 years ago you also claimed to be "busy".
16) do i use those harsh words on you when we quarrel? who started using them even in front of the kids? even normal days the 4 letters words also come out of your mouth, talking about role model and telling me to be one.
17)what do you actually want from me? is it you want me to be 100% obedient?
18) when i was preg, i have to cope with the big tummy and new maid and mom, then i cannot even pour out my frustration on you? it shows how understanding you are to your wife. You can relate your problem to someone and not your wife. the problem is not in me is you. You like want to be in control of woman esp in bed. Even the slut and you blame me for what happened and never the fault of the 2 of you!!