Another blow?

I got another blow yesterday. I happened to see my hubby's hp with those smses "Hi baby......", obviously to a woman!
When I confronted hin, he denied. He even swears by it.
He seems so determined that he did not do so?
I nearly have another breakdown!
I know he wont admit as he knew the consequence this time and who in his right mind will dare to confess? I really hope is not real too.

He claims it is due to my depression, I know I have this depression on and off and almost every night I cried myself to sleep. Yesterday, I again swallowed several pill and leading to stomach upset terribly. I hit my head on the chair! But is it worth it? Is it worth to hand on to a man if he is not true to his wife?
My coming birthday wish is to have a lasting marriage with no more betrayal from my hubby and my two gals with happy lives.

I do not mind exchange my life to ensure my gals' happiness. Maybe I am the problematic one leading to the marriage turn out this way!

I hope this is not the last blog from myself and wish me luck!